begin my downfall
cuz I've met a person
and this time he said that he loves me
and I love his eyes
so in advance for when I fail I want to say I'm sorry
you're way too good for me
cuz I'm cursed with years of failure
and I know I'm bound to bring you down
I guess it's plain to see
I'm cursed with shredded jeans
and shoes too big for my feet
I miss my Steven. And I know he'll eventually read this so I better talk about him :)
I met Steve at my friends house party in Clifton. I was with Laurie and Zeke. I was standing out on the balcony and I found an 1/8 of some dank on the ground. I decided that I wasn't going to pocket it, and return it to whoever. It turned out to belong to this guy Steve. of course everyone was referring to him as "Headstrong." I gave them to him, he thanked me, didn't even look up at me, and handed me a nugget. FREE POT! WOOT! Didn't think twice about the cute guy that gave it to me. The following weekend at Level 1, I was drunk ass shit. I rarely drink, but me and my boy Holy D got wasted. Ohhh who is that ht guy over there?!?! HOLY SHIT thats brandon! my ex's friend. We made out. yay. And some annoying guy kept following me around, thanking me that I found his pot. Then I came home, signed online, and on the infamous RAVERGEEK, I posted my shout outs. The following Monday, my friend Tammy told me to look at the board, someone was talking about me. So I did, and it was Steve, talking about how he met this amazing girl (me hehe), and he couldn't wait to see me again. He soon IM'd me, told me to go to Nite Owl in Dayton that Tuesday. Since I had already planned on it, I went w/ Laurie. I walked in, didn't see Steve ANYWHERE for about an hour, until I looked up at the stage. Was that him on the tables?! OMG whoever that is is fucking hot! And they are spinning some dope ass dnb. He walked up to me after his set, gave me a hug, thanked me for coming, and then saw my "Saves the Day" pin on my purse, and got all crazy like HOLY SHIT!!! You like Saves the Day! Then he looked at my other pins, Get Up Kids, Buzzcocks, Weezer, he smiled at me, and we sat down and talked. This is when I fell for Steve...
The things we have in common are CRAZY. We both have cats named Zion, we both worked at Arby's for 2 years (shut up), we are the few kids in the "rave scene" that like punk, emo, and that type of shit, we both LOVE Weezer, we both LOVE dnb, our birthdays are 2 days apart, we both have our lebrets pierced, we both hate beef, both of our moms have dark green cameries, he loves the way I dress, he likes my pale ass skin, he has the most gorgeous blue eyes. My mom loves him, his mom likes me I think, he's my Italian stallion. Dark hair, dark skin, blue eyes. so dreamy. I've never dated a guy with such a passion for something. He loves skating and scratching and painting graff, and me of course.
I wish he didn't live in Cincinnati, but we'll be closer soon enough. I see him a lot, so thats good. <3
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